Monday, August 20, 2012

He met me.



"That night he arose and took his
eleven children and crossed the ford of the Jabbok.  He took them and sent them across the stream, and everything else he had.  And Jacob was left alone."  
Genesis 32:22

Did you read what I read?  Eleven children...coincidence, never!

The past few days have been full of sorrow.  

My heart longs to hold my eleven children in Africa.  I miss their laughs...their smiles.  I miss their daddy.  His strength...his passion.

Honestly, I wanted to go back to "Egypt."  To throw this whole walk by faith thing to the roadside.  In my grief I was willing to give up my life just to be together as a family again, even if for a season.

Then the Lord met me.  

Personally.

Jacob was on a journey with his family.  Eleven children, not ten or nine, eleven children. 

And I knew it was for me.

He then sent them across the stream and met the Lord alone near Jabbok.

Jabbok; a place of passing over.

And there Jacob wrestled with God.

"Beloved, this must ever be a typical scene in every transformed life.  There comes a crisis hour to each of us, if God has called us to the highest and best; when all recourses fail; when we face either ruin or something higher than we ever dreamed; when we must have infinite help from God and yet, ere we can have it, we must let something go; we must surrender completely; we must cease from our wisdom, strength, and righteousness, and become crucified with Christ and alive in Him."  Streams in the Desert

And so here I stand.  On the other side of Jabbok.  Having wrestled.  Wondering if God has a new name for me.  

Either way, I saw God face to face this morning.  Today was my Penial.





P.S. This song has ministered to me in my sorrow.

6 comments:

Elise Heidy said...

Wow! Summer, you are so encouraging. Praying for you and the 11 kiddos. There are never coincidences - you're totally right! Happy the Lord brought you through this morning, he is so faithful. Also, I just downloaded this song! I love it! Can't wait to see you guys tomorrow!

Elise

Jenay said...

Beautiful post. God is good!!!!

BETHANY said...

Oh, Summer, this whole thing stinks. No doubt about it. It's awesome, though, when God speaks to us so personally in the midst of life being rotten. Continuing to pray for your family to be reunited sooner than later!

Dawn Wright said...

Your love never fails and never gives up and never runs out on me......

Praying continuously for your family!!!! Wow!!!! Isn't it amazing how God says in our distress....I am here.....I am still God!! You are right that scripture was not an accident! God know he hears and victory is yours......walk in it sister in Christ!!!!

Never be tired or scared when you are held by th Almighty! I know you are weary, but He is not.

Praying!!!!!!

lauradodson said...

oh. i love streams in the desert. so glad the Lord has met you, encouraged you. that you have wrestled and know. God is working. Moving on your behalf. He loves you with an everlasting love. And underneath, his everlasting arms. I love you.

lauradodson said...

oh. i love streams in the desert. so glad the Lord has met you, encouraged you. that you have wrestled and know. God is working. Moving on your behalf. He loves you with an everlasting love. And underneath, his everlasting arms. I love you.