Raw

I am being completely raw in this post in the hopes that it will encourage other mama's. My morning went horribly, terribly bad because of.......MY sin. I was selfish, frustrated, irritable and angry. However, I did not do what I needed to do from the moment I got up this morning--"the good you know you ought to do and you don't, it is sin." Yep, I lived in sin all morning because I knew that I was being wooed by my Lord to come and sit at His feet and I did not. Why do I do this? The Father promises that if we "come unto Him and ask we will receive what we ask for." The word "ask" in the original language actually means beg--and to beg shows that I know that I really need what I am asking for. Oswald Chamber, in his devotional 'My Utmost for His Highest' says this (which just happened to be my devo. for today, that I just picked up--way too late as it is already noon),

"Some people are poor enough to be interested in their poverty, and some of us are poor enough spiritually to show our interest....A pauper does not ask out of any reason other than the completely hopeless and painful condition of his poverty. He is not ashamed to beg--"blessed are the paupers in spirit (Matthew 5:3)."