"The most important aspect of Christianity is not the work we do, but the relationship we maintain and the surrounding influence and qualities produced by that relationship..."*
Last night, as all ten of us were driving back from the city, my husband asked me, "do you think that the Lord could have taught you all that He has without allowing you to get sick?" My answer, "no."
You see, with each illness comes a sense of total reliance on the Lord. In my suffering I have had to learn to rest in the Lord and His ability to take care of all the needs that surround me, my husbands needs, my childrens needs and my own needs. I am learning that I do not have to, nor can I, hold it all together. God is sufficient in ALL things.
Suffering produces humbleness. To admit that I can not do it alone. I just need to be a willing vessel, maintain that sweet fellowship with my Lord, and allow Him to be the all sufficient One.
And so, I sit/lie here in bed. Rest. At moments writhe in pain. Trusting the Lord in ALL things (even contracting a disease that plagues only 500,000 people worldwide/year).
"...That is all God asks us to give our attention to, and it is the one thing that is continually under attack."*
* My Utmost for His Highest