And so, what does a busy mom do when all she can do is lie in bed? Read, ponder and pray. It seems, with me, that the Lord has to knock me low in order to get me to really listen--maybe that is why I am sick all the time. Either way, I am being blessed. I was given the book 'When God Weeps' by Joni Erickson Tada about three months ago. It sat on the shelf despite the high recommendation it came with. The Lord knew when the moment would come where I would sit down, read and listen. If you have ever been through suffering or would like to be better equiped to minister to those suffering, please, please get a copy of this book. It is chalk full of scripture--straight from the throne of Heaven. And offers sound words of encouragement as well as rebuke where our thinking has strade from the Truth.
I recently cried out to my husband, although it was directed at the Lord. "Why am I suffering? Why do I keep getting sick? Have I disobeyed? Am I being rebellious?" God's answer,
This is what I have called you to, "for it has been granted to you on behalf of Christ...to suffer for Him..."Philippians 1:29 & "For just as the sufferings of Christ are our in abundance, so also our comfort is abundant through Christ."
2 Corinthians 1:5
It is through suffering that we develop character, hope and perseverence. When it gets down to it, this is not about me, it about God's will being accomplised through me-- a mared, cracked and weak vessel, made strong through my Lord and Savior!